|*22nd April' 06*|

DEAD BEAT!

|*20th April' 06*|

I HAVE BEEN WAITING FOR GUIDANCE FOR ROOM BOOKING. TILL NOW I DON'T RECIEVE ANY. WHERE IS THE RESPONSIBILITY. IT WILL AFFECT THE CLUB BIG TIME NOE. DAMN IT! LEFT ALONE TO DO THINGS WHICH I'M UNSURE? ITS NOT ABT BEING DEPENDANT IT ABT BEING SAVE AND MAKE SURE THINGS ARE DONE PROPERLY AND CORRECTLY! I DON'T HAF TO LEARN THE OLD WAY CAN'T IT BE MORE FLEXIBLE?!

|*16th April' 06*|

Hee... Finally went to SFA after so long...=x Saw 1 new member hmm.. and most of the usual people weren't around. Guess their busy? hmm.. Found out the company my fren's working for has 15% discount for tickets to Westside Story... hee... Hopefully can go... and.. I want to go for the Vocal performance featuring 1 of Mozart's opera in Nafa tis thursday... buddenz..who'll go with me..haiz..-.= And.. The Marriage of Figaro, 1 of Mozart's Opera, is coming to Esplanade Theatres in July.. Wao..A lot happening in the Esplanade Theatres..lolx.. ^_^ And oh.. Mission Imppossible 3 starting on 3rd May in the Cinemas..Might watch it..=)

Sch's starting in 1 weeks time.haiz.. gonna be freaky busy manz.. My time table like like packed?!! plus practices and practices...gosh.. Do I even haf a life? Laughs..

|*13th April' 06*|

Went for Cello practice as usual, but den some mischap happened..The room we're suppose to use is under maintenance, and we end up with no rooms. Haiz.. I hope this don't happen anymore manz..very ma fan leh...=.- Wasted nearly 2 hrs, actually prac can end early de, but end up late. Oh well... it was kinda a gud thing for me..=)

Well, sometimes I really wonder, do I like teaching or not. I do like teaching other people wat I know or have learnt, especially music, whatever forms. I know I have to keep an open mind, and deliver it in a way that is reasonable( Shld know wat I mean).
Basically just sharing my knowledge, muz look at it in a right way. I have something in my mind, perhaps a new method of teaching? hmm.. I'm not too sure either..:s, but why don't I like teaching long term??? Weird huh.. =\

|*12th April' 06*|

Today got A capella practice with the new teacher. Actually not new to me lahs..coz he kinda taught me b4, in secondary school. hahahazZ... A bit similar to the teacher who taught me during choir in secondary school, so no problem lahs.. But haiz... why am I in a confused situation again.... so now what? Am I an Alto or a Soprano? I'm versatile.. yea I know, but but but????? hmm...haiz..-.=" Mezzo Sop yea but alto...=\ well it depends..haiz..Time to train up my voice again...Darn it..=.-" I like Practice though...=)

|*10th April' 06*|

Yaay!!... Went swimming today. Swam for nearly 2hrs. Haiz...my Limbs are weak nowadays mahz...sad-ed... Dropped my locker key at the deep end pool la..wah piang.. lucky nvr panic.. I kept floating la..dunno y.. last time at least can sink a bit..lolx...-.- got the key back up using my toes...lucky manz..=\
A bit scared scared arhs there... Nobody 1... the showeroom especially...=.-

Think I gonna buy my stationary stuffs tommorrow bahs..hmm..

|*9th April' 06*|

Haiz.. Wanted to go to SFA for mass but den, woke up le slept again...-.- in the end went to the later mass nearer to my place lo... I Miss SFA....I want to go there for Easter Vigil on saturday Night, nvr sang in the choir and seen them for 3-4mths..-.-" I like disappeared...haiz..

I need to get some exercise..-.= Swimming!!!! ok....and get my stuffs like laptop cover, year planner( maybe SU have..hmmm.), a new hairdo?!!! Any ideas? coz I find myself boring..lolx.. like i'm always the same even though I'm in poly for 1 yr liao..pple have some changes here and there me still the same..haiz..

|*8th April' 06*|

When for Theory class in the morning as usual, do the Qn 1 kinda qns till mad. haiz...still dun really get it eh..>.<>

Its been quite some time since I had laughed so much in a day..LOLx.. Sheena you really are funny, oh my gudness..hahahazZ... cannot stop laughing ...Lmao..lolx..=x Quite a gud day today..=)

Tmr's Palm Sunday le, dunno which church to go, I like ps the church choir seh, wanted to sing psalms for easter vigil, buddenz looks like i can't make it lahs..-.-" haven been there in 2006 yet..lolx.. I want to go leh..lolx..hmm... =

7th April' 06

Got my Laptop tonight. Thought it wasn't coming coz it was around 9+pm. The time for it's delivery was 6pm-10pm. Phew~ Was watching the 9pm show on channel 8, but den just nice the laptop came so I barely watched it coz was busy setting up the laptop..LoLx.. den tried connecting wireless in the dinning room, no signal, so I set up my music folders 1st lo. Busy transferring music from my external hard disk to the laptop, den organise it a bit. After that I brought everything into my bedroom. Tried connecting wireless again, Finally got it..wahahazZ!!! =D Very Cool manz..hehe.. =) But I don't understand why blogspot is in Traditional Chinese. However I tried to change also can't get to English arhs...Why eh? Help?! Other than that everything looks Fine to me.. heee.. =D

|*6th April' 06*|

Hmmm... Went to choir chalet on wednesday afternoon, got a bit bored, so slept for a while. Woke up 2hrs later to rent bicycles. Got BBQ at night, cook and ate normal stuffs lo.. the place not bad la.. came home this afternoon, went for cello practice at night.

While on my way back home on in the train, I saw my Vocal senior last time in Nafa. Felt kinda sad inside me, not sure why. Immediately I remembered the times I spent in Nafa, where I pratice my Vocals nearly everyday after class till evening. Practice till from a normal voice to a opened voice which I was aiming for. But right now I'm back to a square one, back to where I was when I 1st sang for my teacher during my 1st Vocal lesson. I feel really sad...haiz... I like having Vocal lessons there, the teacher is great =)plus able to have Italian, German and French classes, but I don't like the environment there....plus I'm not sure whether I'm able to survive the other classes that I'll take and aim towards my goal of being an Opera Singer. Big Sigh... =(

Cello practice kinda getting stressful, coz 1st song I've learnt for upcoming concert is the piece with most critical problem..aRghz...Help! It's Frustrating!=\ Haiz... There must be some way I will get it right. hmm..-.-" I must find it!.. Don't know why sometimes a bit off form, suppose to be alright le..but it just wasn't what i expected..grrr...disappointing.

Today I felt better. Not really sure why but I just feel better =D There's just 1 small thing that I regret coz I didn't do it..nvm about tt.. keke. Now Tired Just wanna SLEEP!

My Laptop's coming tommorrow night! Kinda Excited eh? LOLx.. hmm..Hope everything will be Alright yea...=)

|*4th April' 06*|

Damn, make me FUME all the way home. Got me unhappy, Jackpot already, HAPPY?!! Am i even being Cared for? or just being Used. What is there to prove.. I thought Life was Great, but why is it like that now. What Happening? What's Going ON? Why is it like this? why?Why?WHy?WHY?WHY???!!!!! Deep Shit i'm in right now, Fucked Up. =.=

|* 3rd April' 06*|

I just dunno wat to do or say anymore. I hurting so much that iIreally can't help but think badly. I dun 1 to be hurt by being betrayed or backstabbed. I won't be able to take it. Rite now, thinking of running across the road like nobody's business is 1 of the thoughts I have. or maybe jumping down the overhead bridge also can. I noe I really got a problem la..but I've nvr done anything to hurt myself before.

I'm still here coz my time is just not up yet, probably not anytime soon. I can't take it away, coz it's wrong and will only disrespect to the One who create and give lives to human beings. That's why U still see me around.

I know breaking down is not the answer, but I just can't help it. During a bus ride also can make me want to drop a tear, that's serious already.

Sometimes I wonder if I'm even being cared for or thought of. What am I on Earth For??? Why not just let me complete what I have to do and take me back??? Instead of suffering like this and making troubles for people, making them unhappy.